About me
Kamilla Irene Czastka
I am a certified painter. The study of art was a natural choice.
I like the freedom to be able to do things and to choose whether I do them or not.
Wanting something and not being able to achieve it due to a lack of technique is an
unnecessary castration.
I have always been on the move with questions and the discovery of meaning.
Now that I have been on my way for 58 years, I want to study physics.
I think it is the real explanation for everything.
Just like with painting – my personal grounding during times of intense compression and overpressure – I must learn this understanding.
I simply have to know. I want to correct my thoughts, involve others, and cross-reference.
Of course, these thoughts have already been anchored in many minds.
And I would love to find those minds.
What led me to these thoughts in the first place was the thought of my own energy and where I get it from.
I am leaving out the biological process of cell division, although even here – cell, cell nucleus, membrane, the filling mass with particles and information in between – I like the analogy to the atom and its structure: particles with a nucleus, without a nucleus, mediators, social glue, sympathy and antipathy.
Or looking at a flower: nucleus, a social platform with a radius of effect. I put everything into these relationships and I see that it works.
My brain simply never stops thinking. I hit boundaries and look behind them.
I dig and research, discovering things I never suspected, or I stumble upon thoughts and research that fit my insights exactly and even explain them beyond.
In the end, I always land on a structure: A-Nucleus, B-Density-Space, C-Periphery and the limitation of an effect. If B disappears, then A and C collapse into each other.
To the point where they would have to nullify each other out of plus and minus. What is the zero? For me, the potential All or 100 percent?
I have many notes based on various topics: relationships, flowers, bodies, cells, the sun.
I am always chasing after the how and why and above all: WHY?
I am here to collect moments and encounters.
In my essence, I am a scientist, not an artist who entertains.
I am strange and I have strange connections that overwhelm many people.
It was often easier for me to hide under the mantle of an artist.
As a student at an art academy, I was in an extravagant, often detached environment.
It was okay, but at some point, I hit boundaries. I need different, deeper knowledge.
I like being a craftsman because I succeed at it. I succeeded at far too many things.
That is why it took so long for me to start understanding myself.
I am a seeker of knowledge and a collector of knowledge, and above all, I am a seeker of meaning and logic.
I am looking for the imbalance in the sphere.
And for the cause behind the selective attractiveness of attraction.
Physics, and especially quantum physics, is exactly what feels like the way home to me.
It is an absolute feeling of home.